:'(

the feeling is back..
the depressed feeling..

this time worst... i don even know what is going on with me...

everything seems to be fine.. and i just know that something is missing. something important.

working had been the most enjoyable stuff in the world for me. but recently i felt that the momentum had slowed down. slowed down so much. im not so dynamite anymore. and im so demoralize.

is it because i had been working on the same thing for the past 3 years? or... im the one with the problem? i don know.

i really... so disappointed in myself. and im such a failure. i cant even do a simple job right now. so pathetic. so pathetic... i don know what to do. and don know who can help me... i don know..

im losing my way......