we are just friends after all....

recently, realize someone that is so important to be are trying to hide something for me..

we used to have so much fun time together... almost together everyday.....

he is so important to me its just because when im at the bottom of my life, he stand by me and give me his full support......

when i realize he is trying to hide something from us, my first thought was not to expose him as he must have his own reason for doing so... but after a while, really feel a heart ache in me.... realize that this thing has make me feel so sad...

haiz..
he has his life to go.... he know what is the best for him.....
we are just friends after all.....
will wish u jia you...

understand your intention...
i will not disturb u anymore..
jia you..

forget it..

have been actively involve in you all de things too much...

making everyone so unhappy...

and dislike me.....


will stop myself from doing all these....... don worry....

i am a damn stupid fucking asshole nerd bastard........... happy?

giving up

seems like things has gone very wrong yet i do not know what is the wrong of it.
perhaps i have been asking too much from you..
perhaps all this is not what u like..

the love and concern gave to you seems to be nothing at all..

if this is the case,

jia you. wish u all the best. i will not disturb u anymore.

i promise

SMK Seri Perling

at this moment, im resting at home...
tidy up my room and also my pc...
Saw Perling st john video...
so many memories start to come back....
show you some of the picture inside...














remember the theme we had before?

"together we are one"
"that's what friends are for"
"making you a life saver for a safer future"

do you remember all these??

we are so happy in the past. no matter what we do, we are still that happy.
i do not blame you all for the change as i believe im responsible for it too.
he often remind me that there is a life cycle for them...
starting from don know each other, get to know, friends, brother, eventually everything goes down... perhaps the day had come yet we refused to admit it... this make us struggling for it..


we used to have nothing. in duty, we always stand behind... until now, we are the top 3 in JB, we have our NCO, great committee support and system... but where is the happiness that we used to have?

don really know what to say or to do to bring all these back.

yet, i believe, all of us changes so much,

but the spirit we had, remain the same,
"Pro Fide, Pro Utilitate Hominum"
"For Faith, For the Service of Mankind"

keep this is your mind, nothing else matters.

look back at those orientation and AGM video...
find yourself back..