this is the fourth year le...
still cant forget the day we had before...
learning to accept it..
but its real hard....
don know how are you...
so miss you...
everytime think of you, my tears drop down...
really really miss you.
i got so many things want to tell you..
what i have achieve,
what my boss praise me,
how success i am,
and so many more....
Pa,
you have gone for so many years,
do you know that we have never forget you at all????
mother and i tried very hard to avoid the topic of you...
we know once we start off,
we will break in tears.
pa,
so many people bully mother..
yet i cant do anything...
after you have gone,
i have been building up my own wall to protect the family..
i have not been so happy like before..
thinking that everyone is so good and nice,
yet,
i build up the wall in order to not meet with anyone..
i no longer trust people..
i only trust myself...
pa,
in foochow,
i know its always your dream to make me into the committee sit one day
i did it.
i am the asst general secretary of the youth team.
i am the top 5 committee
but do you know that all your friend has change so much after you have gone?
they become so realistic.
until i don even know how to talk to them....
pa,
mother is very xing ku right now..
we are in very bad situation right now..
i so hope you are around...
there are so many and many things i want to tell you...
i miss you really so much...
i broke into tears when i write this blog....
i rally don know what to do...
i know that i have to learn to take it..
but after so many years,
i thought i made it already..
but i didnt..
the sadness,
the hardship,
the missing,
perhaps only mother and i will understand....
pa, no matter where you are,
i sincerely hope that you are happy forever..
HAPPY FATHERS DAY